Fair Play Facts

  Once upon a time, there was protection for the people of the USA, in this document called the Constitution that was established to protect the people. I became acquainted with this document by no choice of my own.  It is through this acquaintance that I have become aware of how many elected officials use parts of this document to their benefit or so they think. The big one is the 5th Amendment which was often used for those who where accused, tried and found not guilty. It was a protection from double jeopardy. But what if rogue prosecutor's use the 5th amendment to benefit themselves? To help them "scratch a back" or make a little extra something, something? To wrongly protect the guilty by tampering, obstructing to set up the innocent to appear guilty. How many cases have we seen, Epstein for one,  where the prosecutor appeared to being his job yet was protecting him? Who is there to protect the innocent from rogue, deceptive prosecutors? The 5th amendment   ...

  Sometimes, and I mean only sometimes, I allow myself to feel the pain of the life I have left behind. Not only with the death of my husband., I allow myself to go back, far back to all that I have lost in my life and the pain, sorrow that goes along with it. I think of all of the love I have had, I look around now to a somber space, filled with a fraction of response.  The life, love, animals, parents, family, friends, fun... have all moved on to other pastures or the other side.  As  I was reflecting, the feeling of loneliness, of course, followed. I was thrust back in to the decisions of my life and how pain was the reason I made so many choices that would protect me from pain. I did not want to allow too much into my life because I could not bear the pain of losing it. So be it! We all have painful experiences, we all reflect on our lives and the loss we have endured. It's within all of us, that somber space has been felt by so many before me. My Mom, Aunts, Un...

                                " A Warrior never worries about his fear"                                                                                                             Carlos Castaneda Love this....yet is conquering fear the only quality in a warrior ? So many of us have to deal with fear everyday, are we all warriors ?  I get many messages of support on my path and many say I am a warrior , my fight is admirable!  I appreciate and admire these messages as they really give me the push I need yet I have to ask myself, what is a warrior ? How many warri...

  Whatever happened to " going on " after a death? Remembering days gone by, my thoughts go to growing up and my family would embrace the passing, not without sorrow but we always kept that soul close to home, never forgetting the experiences we had. Sometime between then and now, it seems death has become a time to "move on" and at some point, some feel the need to remind survivors that their child, spouse, friend, is in a better place. Is it really a time to move on? Does it matter that they are in a better place?  This topic is a big annoyance to many who have experienced loss and I am one of them. Everyone expects that after a loss you will come out of it unscathed, the old you will not change, you will get over this quick and the thought that they are in a better place will help you move on. All death does is change everything, if some want to keep the memory alive, it is their choice. When we "move on", we go forward and leave everything behind us. W...

  It has been a long time since I have used the word dating yet  through the urging of family and friends, (who don't want me to become an old maid), I considered and have dated  recently, yet there is something missing.  Back when I dated  years before marriage, it was fun! There where no questions on what the game plan was, the ultimate goal was apparent!! When the rhythm was right, it was the greatest experience and when the man I dated seemed to be off course, the dating stopped. The ultimate goal was a committed relationship, for both sides. Be it through marriage or just a commitment. When did this change? I now hear statements and words like companionship, friends with bene's, we do splits, I don't like to travel, this is who I am and i'll never change...Ugh the chaos!!  Why does anyone date after marriage or as we age?? Is it only about companionship to date ? What is the point, get a pet? If the other party is now established in a non relationshi...

  ~ All God's angels come to us disguised ~                                                              James Russel Lowell    A beautiful sentiment yet is it really true? Are angels  there yet we just can't see them? If angels are here to guide us, why the concealment? Do angels reveal themselves to those they trust or is their existence to remain a mystery.  So much to ponder when you actually think about it. Just like when I started noticing angels hovering over my house. These beautiful cloud formations that seemed to be watching me for weeks. These angels where clearly there for a reason, which it turned out the reason was the upcoming homicide of my husband. The angels seemed to be protecting me, watching me before and after his death. Over the next 5 years my angels made appearance many times and mos...

Recently, I was reminded of the fearful world I once lived in, when the potential buyer of my home backed out because a resident gave her negative information on the management.  A home that would give her everything she was asking for, yet she allowed one person create fear. This brought me back several years ago, when I had to make a choice to stay in my home of 23 years or go. I knew I was put on a path yet, unsure of what was going on.  I learned quite easily that I must trust God on this one. I had no clue what I was doing, I had no idea where I was going and if I would even sell my home. So I gave the fear to God and expressed everything I loved about my life and everything I would miss. I was also sure to mention things that I may like to happen but was not really sure. My deal was that if the home sold in 2 months then I would go, which it sold in a day and I was on my way to the unknown. To meet new people, to learn a new way. Always trusting, patient and excepting of...