Fair Play Facts

As I glance forward, I see the tip of the mountain , the mountain that I have been climbing for years.  It's there and appears close yet the only way I can get a grip on how close, is to look at the path behind me. It was full of debris, mud, holes, jagged edges, drops, and loops. Now, t he path behind me on this what appeared to be exceptionally large mountain is cleared.  Perseverance, self awareness, trust and determination has cleared my way to the top of the place I was unsure I could go. A place that many fear or ignore, the place that's inside of all of us, the unknown!                                                             Through it all, I realized I must except the climb, be willing to fall of the edge and give this monster of a  mountain  everything I had and everything that I was, so I did. Fear is debilitating which is a worse fate than the unknown. Climb your mountain , clear your path and as you edge closer to the top, remember what go you there!

  Recently, while having a conversation with my sister, she brought up the "F" word. A word I became quite accustomed to while going through the wrongful death portion of  Frank's homicide. I heard it from family, my attorney, I heard it in my sleep. The word followed me for years and I gave it much pondering during that time. I am not so sure why some feel that it is needed in order to move on after something distasteful, disastrous or down right dirty happens in their lives  but many do. I guess applying it after people lie to you (little lies) or someone close to you who has made bad choices, is a healthy habit. Yet, thinking that  forgiveness  should be applied to every wrong that has been done, every person who has affected your life for the worse, is not how I roll.  People make choices, some learn from these choices and some don't. Is the reason because many forgive  them for their actions, then their life moves along as if nothing happened, so they repeat the

I see many people engulfed in numerous life challenges, ranging  from money issues, relationship, work problems to complete life changes. These challenges instead of being embraced are creating fear, unacceptance and in some cases depression. All of the signs are there for us to absorb, the signs that these challenges  are part of the ride, a necessary evil in our world of growth and reconnection to one's soul purpose. As life leads us down many paths, why do so many avoid accepting the challenge? Trying to control their path and then get frustrated when they have to repeat it?                                         I was a quick learner after my husbands homicide, I could do this the hard way or the easy way! Embracing what was in front of me, I walked without fear and trusted God. The acceptance that I was being put on a path of deceit, fraud, and abusive souls was for a reason. It was through this acceptance that lead me to strength by not trying to control what was happening.