Fair Play Facts

As I glance forward, I see the tip of the mountain , the mountain that I have been climbing for years.  It's there and appears close yet the only way I can get a grip on how close, is to look at the path behind me. It was full of debris, mud, holes, jagged edges, drops, and loops. Now, t he path behind me on this what appeared to be exceptionally large mountain is cleared.  Perseverance, self awareness, trust and determination has cleared my way to the top of the place I was unsure I could go. A place that many fear or ignore, the place that's inside of all of us, the unknown!                                                             Through it all, I realized I must except the climb, be willing to fall of the edge and give this monster of a  mountain  everything I had and everything that I was, so I did. Fear is debilitating which is a worse fate than the unknown. Climb your mountain , clear your path and as you edge closer to the top, remember what go you there!

  Recently, while having a conversation with my sister, she brought up the "F" word. A word I became quite accustomed to while going through the wrongful death portion of  Frank's homicide. I heard it from family, my attorney, I heard it in my sleep. The word followed me for years and I gave it much pondering during that time. I am not so sure why some feel that it is needed in order to move on after something distasteful, disastrous or down right dirty happens in their lives  but many do. I guess applying it after people lie to you (little lies) or someone close to you who has made bad choices, is a healthy habit. Yet, thinking that  forgiveness  should be applied to every wrong that has been done, every person who has affected your life for the worse, is not how I roll.  People make choices, some learn from these choices and some don't. Is the reason because many forgive  them for their actions, then their life moves along as if nothing happened, so they repeat the

I see many people engulfed in numerous life challenges, ranging  from money issues, relationship, work problems to complete life changes. These challenges instead of being embraced are creating fear, unacceptance and in some cases depression. All of the signs are there for us to absorb, the signs that these challenges  are part of the ride, a necessary evil in our world of growth and reconnection to one's soul purpose. As life leads us down many paths, why do so many avoid accepting the challenge? Trying to control their path and then get frustrated when they have to repeat it?                                         I was a quick learner after my husbands homicide, I could do this the hard way or the easy way! Embracing what was in front of me, I walked without fear and trusted God. The acceptance that I was being put on a path of deceit, fraud, and abusive souls was for a reason. It was through this acceptance that lead me to strength by not trying to control what was happening. 

  The word "fact"  comes up constantly these days. What may be a fact to one person, may be viewed entirely different to another. The word itself is open to scrutiny, as many view it's meaning as interpretation, yet facts are facts , dreams are interpretation. The word " fact" came to me by chance when creating my business, Fair Play Facts, a guide to corruption 101, but that's another story. Facts meaning is truth, reality, certainty. A word that follows me constantly on my journey. In a world of liars, schemers & unethical people facts are a very tough thing to find. In my world the  facts are clear,   only truths, only reality.    It's a very clear fact that there has been a bad, bad girl in Clearwater Florida. As a matter of fact downright sinful, who lives in her own reality, her own interpretations of truth and alters the facts. Yet there is one fact she never counted on ... she has picked the wrong wife.  And that's a fact Jack. Fairpla

  We've all heard the term " widows brain", we'll at least I have since becoming a widow. I'm not really sure what it means or if it really exists, yet what I do know is that most  widows I have encountered since my solo journey, have this inner urge or need to move or search for a comfortable place or another way. It's hard to put my finger on but it's a sense of being open to anything yet a discomfort in most everything. This place can take months or years to find and many widows travel solo in search of it, as I discovered driving across country only to encounter another  widow doing the same thing and stopped at the same hotel on her search.  It's an inner void that attaches to us. An urge that no one can fill, many times not even family. Our fears become secondary, the connection to "things" are lost and I am not even sure if "things" matter anymore. We become a part of our past and will never be the same, our views on everyth

  Once upon a time we lived in a country that was fortunate to have serious, concerned, unbiased prosecutors. I'm not sure when but somewhere along the line, prosecutors have become deceptive, conniving & untrustworthy. In my experience with lying, conniving prosecutors, it has become very clear to me that this infection or virus that is running rampade in our legal system is a direct result from what I call the "greater then God" syndrome. State attorney's and District attorney's are prosecutors. Just glorified attorney's. When did we the people lose our rights to these glorified attorney's? Did we even know it was happening? There are so many cases in our country that are wheel and deal cases through prosecutors , which leaves them wide open to a hand out or other unethical behavior and leaves the victims or wrongdoers to injustice, which gives the prosecutor the unhealthy feeling of being " greater than God". Currently,  prosecutors are  i